Lonely Valentine

It sucks being by yourself on Valentines day, especially since you know you already have an angel back home who actually WANTS to spend time with you on that day. I would love nothing to do more than spend time with her. Unfortunaltely, theres the whole 1000 mile thing. I realy miss her. For those of you who are like "Yo, didnt she break your heart already?" Then answer is yes and no. Yes she hurt me. No I dont hate her. Yes I do still love her. No Im not happy with what shes doing. Yes I do understand. So there you have it. And yes the isolation thing is still effect, but its slowly coming down (despite what happened recently, if you know me, you already know). So when I get back, me and her will be just like we were supposed to be. So yeah its all good for now. But in the meantime, it sucks being alone. Might hang with someone on V-Day. G, dont worry, theyre just freinds. I just dont want to spend that day by myself. So yeah... Damn I need to write more songs. Maybe that would help me with EVERYTHING Im going through. Yeah, that might work...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off...

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How To Shatter A World In Minutes...

Ok let me start off this blog by saying...WHAT. THE. F***!! Glad I got that out of my system. Ok now I can realy realy tell you why Im...well not mad...but....broken. Yeah broken sounds good. Anyway, I feel this because of, you guessed it, a girl. But not just any girl, the perfect girl. Remember the girl I told you about before. Yeah, her. Well I dont know how to put this but...I dont know where my and her relationship is right now. Let me tell the whole story:
I got home after a weekend at my friends house and I remembered that I didnt call "Amy" all weekend. So I decided to call her. We small-talked for awhile when she dropped and atomic bomb on the small city I call my life. Not only did some guy ask her out but whats worse is...she said yes. So she told this and at first I had nothing to say. However, as the conversation (or lack there of) went on, I slowly heard myself asking why. But the word why started to get louder and faster, until one point I screamed "WHY?! WHY WOULD YOU DO THSI?! WHAT MADE YOU SAY YES?!" She said that it was becasuse I was so far and she needed someone right there. I was shocked and felt like a jackass. I knew that it hurt but worst of all...I knew she was right. She did need someone close by. I couldnt say this because I was so living in me being mad and depressed(but I guess shell know now, huh?) Anyway, we talked and I told her why it hurt me so much and she we on to tell me that she wouldnt stopn it. Personally I cant blame her. However I still wish that she didnt it. Its killing me that she is going out with him. I dont even know how to speak to her anymore. I mean we can talk like we used to, because she has a boyfreind now. I just dont know wat to do right now. I am soo lost. I hope she reads this so she can know EXACTLY how I feel. I was to mad over the phone to say anything else. She continues to asure me that she stll loves me the same way. She also continures to say that I also gave her the green light to date othere people. But I pointed back saying that I also said I was be hurt if she did though. Either way, I dont know where this leaves us. She says she still loves me as much as she did before, but Im hurting so much that Im questioning wether I can beleive her or not. Im also questioning weher I can still love anymore. I mean I love her still, like no joke, but I was so incredidbly hurt by this that Im not sure if I can love anyone, let alone her. Im not being melodramatic, thats just how much Im hurting right now. So now I have to pick up the peices and continue going back into my isolation until I feel I can realy love again. who knows when that can be. Maybe a few days, maybe a few months, maybe even a few years (although that seems unlikely, im a sucker for love) Anyway I talk to her today and see what she has to say and we'll see where it goes today. Stay tuned...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off...

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(LOUD VOICE THAT IS NOT T0KI0'S)
ISOLATION BEGINS NOW. T0KI0 WILL STILL TALK TO LIFEFORMS, BUT WILL BE EMOTIONALLY DISTANT UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE...

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Shes Gonna Be SOOOOO Pissed

In regards to the beautiful girl mentioned before, please dont kill me. I didnt call because I went to my dads gf's house for a few days and forgot my phone. I am soo sorry. Please dont be mad...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader....signing off...

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The Waiting Game

I dont see how a girl can wait so long. Maybe theyre just more patience than dudes, I dont know. But what I do know is that I have a beautiful, wonderful, sexy, intelligent girl waiting for me back home...and its driving me CRAZY!! Ok me and (lets call her Amy Rose. (sneaking the sonic reference)) have been talking for awhile now. We are both madly (I guess we can say) love with each other. Shes been there through some of my best and darkest moments. I truly love her. Anyway thanks to some misguided attempts at controlling me and trying to put me in a place that I dont want to be in, we have about, oh lets say, a 1000 miles between us. Doesnt seem that bad, right? Love conquers all, and all that jazz? Wrong. This distance has put a huge strain on our relationship. Dont get it wrong, we still are totally in love with each other, but its to the point that we dont have a formal boyfriend/girlfriend relationship because she feels that the strain of us being so far apart would hurt her. And I can totally understand that. It would kill me, too. I miss her everyday (Im looking at her picture right now). Im her Hielo and shes my G-Baby (ok i know its wack but im working on a new nickname, aiight?) Anyway, as of now we are waiting until I finish the school year so I can finally take my rightful place by her side. Shes amazing. I dont see how she can wait so patiently, especially since I dont feel like Im waiting for (dont get mad at me for saying that, G). This distance is driving me insane though! Whos she with? Whats she doing? Does she still feel like waiting? Are guys hitting on her? Is she hitting on them? Now I know that I shouldnt think this way, especially the way she loves me, but these are the thoughts that pass through a guys head. I think I think this way because I havent had alot of good things happen in my life and when something good DOES happen, I have to find something wrong with it. And trust me, shes the best thing to happen to me in a very, very, VERY, UNBELIEVABLY VERY long time. I just need to be with her. Thats why Im looking forward toward spring break. So, here we are. Twiddling our thumbs and such. The two lovers waiting for each other. The waiting game continues...

PS. "Amy Rose" please dont get mad at me for what I said. This is just me putting my feelings somewhere so theyre not in here *points to heart*. I just need to say this so I could sleep at night. It hurts everyday that Im not with you (and i know this is mad long)...Damn...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off... 

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Depressing Blog Entry...Vol.1

Ok I told you this blog is gonna have some depressing entries right? Ok well heres the first one:

Alright I woke up feeling like it was gonna be a bad day. I was like "Aww ish, I should have stayed in bed this morning!" So I got up, thanks to a very beautiful girl (Im not gonna name names, but you know who you are), threw my 8 Bit greatness on, and headed out the door, forgetting it was F*****G COLD!!! So I went inside, and got my hoodie that is heavy. Then I took the frozen tundra journey that is my walk to the bus. When I got to school, I was freaking confused because they changed my classes and she does everything different. Then I had to do a presentation in my next class that I had to fix because everyone in my group didnt know what they were doing and did the math for the project wrong. Next class was chemistry...nuff said. At least I had a break in the badness during  4th period  spanish (Ms. Wright is awesome!) Lunch was normal, except for the fact that my little buddy came back for wherever he was at. Math was bad for the simple fact that Im not that good at it. And last but not least...history. My teacher will not SHUT UP! He always talks about what we're not doing or how bad we are. Im like maybe we would pay attention if you would stop talking! Anyway, after that I went home. My friend came to my house and we stood outside and talked to the neighborhood kids. While playing with them, I fell and felt something was missing. Once I went in my house I checked my pockets and realized the worst had happened...I LOST MY MP3!! Now if you know me, I cant live without my mp3 player. The rest of the day was a blur because after that crushing blow, I basically slept for the next 2 days. Damn...8 Bit Leader...signing off...

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Is Lupe Fiasco Really Percival Fats?

Ok theres a rumor going around the Lupe Fiasco is the really the singer, Percival Fats, for a british punk band called Japanese Cartoon. Now they are really good and there is a great resemblance but im not quite sure. Lupe and Japanese Cartoon have both issued as statement refuting the claims (you like how i sounded like a reporter dont you?)


"Percival Fats (Born Percival Hindenburg-Fats) Is NOT Lupe Fiasco (Born Wasalu Muhammad Jaco). Although he is a dear friend."

"...Lupe does finance the band but is NOT I REPEAT NOT THE SINGER IN JAPANESE CARTOON. He is however the producer and we value his participation very much."

Now I realy dont care if he is or isnt but I like the song either way but I do realize that this may make people wonder...so here you go (search around in the space below for the link)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eDDcBYcUW64

You decide...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...Signing off...

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Long Conversation On Myspace

Ok, ish just got real. I was just doin my lil myspace thing. Y'know, jusy checkin the buzz for some off my favorite rappers and stuff. When I was on Wale's page (btw W.A.L.E.D.A.N.C.E. is one of my new favorite songs) I happened across a persons screan name that read "Urban Sci-Fi - Free Beats". So being the inquesitive person that I am, I messaged the person asking for a beat, not thinking i would get a response. So hours went by and I totally forgot, then I looked and there was message from this person asking about what type of music I do. So I was just like "Whatever, lets see where this goes." So we talked for a bit thru messages and before you know it, we got to talkin about doing some business together and maybe she could produce for me! So she said she would work with us (Me and my partners Ty and Rahmel) and come up with some ideas for songs. So I might have the last part of my last blog entry sooner than I thought. She even was talkin about putting us on a mixtape! It looks like i might have somthin to do with this music thing after all... The ride is gonna get interesting. But yall will be there for the ride, right? Yeah, I thought so. Stay tuned, sit back, and watch the Pixxilation Process begin...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off...

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Things Im Looking Forward To In '09 (Musically)

Ok, since '09 just started and everybody is talking about what theyre looking forward to, I figure I would take a shot at it. However since my life is run by music, I'll talk about what Im looking forward to musically. So here it goes:

Everybody from the XXL Freshman of '09 issue debut album

The Blueprint 3 by Jay-Z

Green Day album (whenever it comes out)

Goin To A Luper Fiasco Concert

Goin To A Charles Hamilton Concert

Goin To An N.E.R.D. Concert

and of course...

Atleast 1 recorded song from me!

So there you have it. My '09 wish in letter form. I realy hope all of this happens. So with that said, Im out...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off

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