What every kiss means...

I was just surfing through random pages and I found this. It seems pretty accurate...

-kiss on the stomach="i'm
ready"

~Kiss on the Forehead = "i hope we're
together
forever"

~Kiss on the Ear = "Your my everything"

~Kiss on the Cheek = "We're friends"

~Kiss on the Hand = "I adore you"

~Kiss on the Neck = "we belong
together"

~Kiss on the Shoulder = "I want you"

~Kiss on the Lips = "I love you"

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What the gesture means...

~Holding Hands = "we definitely love
each other"

~Slap on the Butt = "That's mine"

~Holding on tight = "i don't want to
let go"

~Looking into each other's Eyes = "i
just plain love you"

~Playing with Hair = "Tell me you love
me"

~Arms around the Waist = "I love you
too much to let go"

~Laughing while Kissing = "I am
completely comfortable with you"

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--Advice--

Dont ask for a kiss, take one.
If you were thinking about someone
while reading
this,
you're definitely in Love.

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Lol yeah I admit I was thinking of someone, then I read the last part and I was like "...woah" lol...

Lyrics That Make Me Miss Her

(Lyrics have been edited to ensure that they make sense)
Yeah..
Doo-doo-doo, mmm-mmm-mmm-mmm-mmm..
Doo-doo-d-doo, diggy-doo YO..

I never knew a luh, luh-luh, a love like this
Gotta be somethin for me to write this
Queen, I ain't seen you in a minute
Wrote this letter, and finally decide to send it
Signed sealed delivered for us to grow together
Love has no limit, let's spend it slow forever
I know your heart is weathered by what studs did to you
I ain't gon' assault em cause I probably did it too
Because of you, feelings I handle with care
Some niggaz recognize the light but they can't handle the glare
You know I ain't the type to walk around with matchin shirts
If relationship is effort I will match your work
I wanna be the one to make you happiest, it hurts you the most
They say the end is near, it's important that we close..
.. to the most, high
Regardless of what happen on him let's rely


There are times.. when you'll need someone..
I will be by your side..
There is a light, that shines,
special for you, and me..


Yo, yo, check it
It's important, we communicate
and tune the fate of this union, to the right pitch
I never call you my bitch or even my boo
There's so much in a name and so much more in you
Few understand the union of woman and man
And sex and a tingle is where they assume that it land
But that's fly by night for you and the sky I write
For in these cold Chi night's moon, you my light
If heaven had a height, you would be that tall
Ghetto to coffee shop, through you I see that all
Let's stick to understandin and we won't fall
For better or worse times, I hope to me you call
So I pray everyday more than anything
friends will stay as we begin to lay
(there was sumthin here but i took it out) - love ain't simple
Why can't it be anything worth having you work at annually
Granted we known each other for some time
It don't take a whole day to recognize sunshine


There are times.. when you'll need someone..
I will be by your side, oh darling
There is a light, that shines,
special for you, and me..


Yeah.. yo, yo, check it
It's kinda fresh you listen to more than hip-hop
and I can catch you in the mix from beauty to thrift shop
Plus you ship hop when it's time to, thinkin you fresh
Suggestin beats I should rhyme to
At times when I'm lost I try to find you
You know to give me space when it's time to
My heart's dictionary defines you, it's love and happiness
Truthfully it's hard tryin to practice abstinence
The time we committed love it was real good
Had to be for me to arrive and it still feel good
I know the sex ain't gon' keep you, but as my equal
it's how I must treat you
As my reflection in light I'ma lead you
And (i cant wait till I can reach) you
Digga-da, digga-da, digga-da, digga-digga-da-da
Yo I tell you the rest when I see you, peace


There are times.. when you'll need someone..
I will be by your side..
There is a light, that shines,
special for you, and me..


(I'll) take my chances.. before they pass..
.. pass me by, oh darling..
You need to look at the other side..
You'll agree..
-Common's "The Light"

Baby you my everything you all i ever wanted.
We can do it real big.
Bigger then you ever done it.
You be up on everything.
Other (girls) ain't never on it.
I want this forever, i swear i can spend whatever on it.


Ha. And you ain't even have to ask twice
You can have my heart or we can share it like the last slice


Sweat pants, hair tied, chilling with no make up on
That's when your the prettiest
I hope that you don take it wrong
-Drake's "Best I Ever Had"

Ill never go back to Georgia
Not atleast till Have to
-Mayday Parade's "Jamie All Over"

Theres more but this is all Im gonna post for now....8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off..

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Stupid Guy Syndrome...

This is something Im probably going to talk to Fujiko about later.

I...have stupid guy syndrome.

You know how when you have a conversation, and when you hang up, you think to yourself "What the HELL was I saying?"
Yeah that happens to guys alot. It did to me last night.
For the record, this isnt a blog about me being extremely sucky or anything. Alot of guys have this problem. Im just saying that I need to stop saying stupid things. Because I, and everyone else who has ever done this, feel awfully stupid when the conversation is over.
Which is funny because you never realize how stupid you sound until AFTER the convo.
But anyway, in order to be the better person I promised Fujiko I would be, could you please tell me when my disorder is acting up. Your help would be greatly appreciated...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off...

PS. If this blog entry didnt say it enough, I apologize and Im sorry if I came off like an ass. Forgive pls?

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Fricken Killjoy...

You know those people who when your having a good day, they can say one thing and kill your high (i mean high on life people, im not on drugs)? Yeah thats happened to me three times in the pasy 48 hours. I mean I didnt let it faze me but it gets annoying after awhile.
Sometimes it happens because people are just having bad days themselves and just want to/cant help but bring you down with them. Those are the people I try to avoid. I mean some of my friends do that, but when they have a bad day, and I have a good day, sometimes its best just to leave them alone.
Then there are those who had no intention of blowing your high. And it might not even blow your high as much as it just sorta makes your good day flinch in pain a little, but then picks back up. Those are the ones where you can really say anything about it so you can keep your peace of mind. It sorta sucks but you just gotta keep moving with your day, ya know? Wat else can you do.
So with that, Ill try to enjoy the rest of my day. Shouldnt be to hard, but you know the things that shouldnt bother you (and the ones that you wont let bother you) are the ones that sorta kill your high the most...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off...

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Neutral Zone...(yeah like switzerland)

Im sorta in a grey area right now. I have alot to be happy about (potentially) but I have alot of things to upset about (a few of them potentially). So instead of being like "Well Im happy about this, but Im sad abou this", Im gonna keep it to myself for now. Is that a good thing? Or should you always voice whats bothereing. Ive been told that keeping things inside isnt a good thing but Ive also been told that not sayinog whats bothering allows that thing to keep bothering you. Hmm this is a conundrum. I would love to say exactly whats bothering me, but due to new realizations I have put on myself (and one promise that Ive made), I cant/wont. For now Im gonna keep it inside and let my own heart/mind deal with it for a change, and if that doesnt work, THEN Ill go to my friends. Or maybe I should go to my friends first and if that doesnt work, then deal with it myself. Lol this is becoming a confusing blog entry. Not to mention my computer is sorta acting stipud lately. I think I mightjust go blog crazy today (make multiple entries that have to deal with many topics). Just to air out a few things. I have a few ideas so I should be able to atleast do something incase my other plans fall dont happen...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off...

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The Retraction...

Ok so about the previous blog. I woke up this morning and realized I was wrong. It wasnt that I was being a burden, although sometimes I am, but I was relying in the wrong people. Maybe not even that. Maybe I wasnt relying on myself enough. Thats a definite possibility. I guess when bad things happen, I cant go "damn, i suck." I have to say, "damn that sucks, guess i gotta keep moving." I need to be more of an army of one than a foot soldier of many. I still should rely on my friends but I need to be able to gauge when Im relying on them too much and I need to lean on myself more. And theres nothing wrong that. I mean, I still hurt, but instead of waiting for someone to fix my wounds, I should play a more active role in the healing process, while at the same time letting my friends help. Theres a fine line between being a totally dependent on someone and being a total loner, because both of them can cause you to lose people. Some days I wish I could try to be a loner, thinking life would be easier that way. But I realize that that isnt me. No matter how much people hurt me, I love them to much. What can I say, I have a big heart. Sue me. So I guess I have to find the happy medium between dependent and loner. Its like Spider-Man and Batman. (I told you i was a nerd for them both fujiko lol) Spider-Man relys on people, while Batman needs no one. I guess if you fuse both of them you get Sonic, who sorta has both of their attributes. Sonic depends on his friends when he has to, but in the end always stands on his own two. (Lol it weird how they all my fav superheros) So I guess that whats I gotta do. Easier said than done though. But I can do it, Im strong...* Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off...

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A Black Hole Is A Welcomed Thing Right Now...

You ever had one of those days where you feel like people only deal with you because they have to and they make your life a living hell just so you know that they only deal with you because you have to?
Yeah, thats how I feel...
Everyday
Well atleast for the past few weeks.
I mean I feel like a burden on alot of people. Like at home(well not home cuz my real home is on Allison's couch.) Im treated like the ugly stepchild. He doesnt talk to me unless he has to, and the only times he has to is when hes telling me how much I suck, how its my fault bad things happen to me, or yelling at me about the things that I dont do. School is pretty much the same way. They dont talk to just to say "your doin a good job" even though we bust our ass, they just yell at you that you arent good enough. And if they dont like you,they will literally REFUSE to teach you. If you need help, they will actually say no. The students give you hell, but thats to be expected. Even though they are starting to become more of a pain than usual.

Even people back at home make me feel like a burden.

Im only gonna mention one name (although i can name a few others that make me feel that way.) My Mom. You can tell your a burden when A) You always have to call the other person or B)When they eventually DO call YOU they always sound realy distant like they realy dont want to talk, ESPECIALLY to you. I always have to call my mom. I called her last night and she even suggested that I shouldnt call her because shes tired of hearing about the bad things that are going on with me.

Thats the thing. Ive been holding alot of stuff in lately. I dont want to give a reason for people to think that Im burden. I dont talk about things that bother me because I want them to just go away. And if I deny that they exist, maybe they will, I dont know. But I just dont want to bring people down so people can go on with their lives, whether they want to forget about me or not...

Like the title says, a black hole would be welcome. I just want to go away. For two reasons 1) So I can just be alone and not hurt anymore. 2)So if I actually AM a burden on anyone, i wont have to be. They can just get on with their lives, whether they want me in them or not. But just to make my life easier, I wish they would just tell me 1)If Im being a burden or not and 2) If they want me in their lives. They guessing is killing me. Literally, its becoming a strain on my health. Anyway, yeah, I just want to go away. Way away. (Lol its ironic how Im listen to Way Away by Yellowcard right now) So if I am or am not a burden, can you tell me please? It would be greatly appreciated. And be honest, dont spare my feelings. If I am, you can just forget me. Trust me, itll hurt but Im slowly getting used to it...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off...

PS. Im not speaking to anyone in particular. Im just speaking to the universe, hopping someone will hear and understand. But like I said, tell me if I am or am not

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The Death Of...

Here we mourn the passing of an individual

So cynical

In the fact that love existed

He only believed in it in intervals

He may have only been 15 

But his tears were the fears of an old man,

To weary to understand,

Or even go on,

Yes his feelings strong,

But his words were so true,

Hers were so too.

Her touch was his annointment

Now its just disappointment

Time after time, he thought he knew love

But one way or another, he continuously screwed up.

On day one, he said he would never love again,

Never give a hug, or even ever trust a friend

But then she walked in,

His heart turned into smile,

But his parents fucked it up,

He had to go away awhile,

So they chit-chatted and rattled everything that was on their brain

He was so love struck it was hard to remember his middle name

But where he was tore at him

He couldnt understand it

It wasnt his fault,

Neither of them had planned it

It drained every good aspect of him there ever was

It was killing him inside that he couldnt just give up

Everything started to break, things started to shake,

He figured he give it some time, after that it be a peice of cake,

They seperated ways but not how he had planned.

He didnt explain it right, she couldnt fully understand,

That everything would be all good when he got back to his home

But now when he got there, he realized that he would be alone

She didnt let him explain.

You know what, i cant finish this. Its to painful. I told her everything would be better when I got home. She wouldnt even let me TALK to her. How could she let me find out this way. Screw the awkward stuff, you could have just told me over the phone. But I had to read it in a blog. Like, do you even care about me? Was I just a thing to you? We could have talked it out, but we didnt, which probably led to this. It was only four weeks. Thats all it would have taken everything to be fine. If you didnt love me anymore, you could have just told me. Instead of breaking my heart. I dont think ill ever love again. EVER. Fuck life, fuck love. Love is something that the mind invents to kill you at a faster rate. Atleast thats what love does to me. And, even tho you probably will read this, you probably still wont talk to me. Im not even mad, its the fact that you didnt let me explain or talk about it. Thats whats buggin me. I would even attempt to talk to you now, but it seems like your done with me. Ill never fill that spot in my heart that I had for you Fujiko. Its not possible. Hopefully, one day, we can talk about this wether we plan on dating again or not.  Im even contemplating staying in GA. Seeing you in school everyday would be to painful. I dont kno if I could handle it. But you wouldnt care either way. If you do care about me still, even thought were not dating, tell me. Otherwise, im just gonna assume you dont. Look, I just want to explain my side of the story. If you dont want to listen, fine, ill keep it to myself. But just know that I would like to explain. If you give me the chance. Feel free to comment on it...

PS. Im not mad. I know what I did wrong now. I just want the chance to atleast SEE if we can fix this. Just give me that chance...

Theyre BACK!!!!!

I Finally Got It Together...

I once heard some good advice. It was that only at the precipice of destruction can a man, woman, or even a civilization, can change. Thats what happpened to me this morning. My and my wonderful gf where having a discusion, and I said "I still dont know what you see in me."She responded by saying something along the lines of that she needs a man with atleast alittle confidence. I felt that if I dont change, and change soon, I was going to lose her. Unfortunately, I had my phone taken before I got a chance to respond (DAMN YOU MS.BINION!!! *shakes fist in anger*). But there was some good by me not being able to respond immediatley. It gave me a chance to truly evaluate what I have going for me. I heard alittle voice inside me yelling at the little insecure boy inside of me saying "Dude stop bitching! Your pretty cool! You have alot of things going for you." The little boy responded by whining "Well, people dont ususally like me..." The loud voice yelled "So the hell what! If they dont like you, thats their problem, not yours! Tell them 'This is is me, you dont like it, to bad!". SO, after that, I truly evaluated myself and I found I have a few things going for me that realy count.

Im very loving. I can get along with almost anyone.
Im very trusting. You would have to give me a reason NOT to trust you.
Im funny. I can make a joke out of anything.
Im pretty smart...when I apply myself
I have a great taste in music.
I have style.
I can keep control of a situation.
I can be responsible.
And last but not least

I have the GREATEST gf in the world

Now how many people can say that? Now that I think about it, I should consider myself lucky to have all of these gifts. So from this day forward, I shall have confidence in myself! Lets just hope its not to late...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing of...


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Close Call...

You know those hospital television dramas? Where they constantly have close calls with the patients? Thats where I was a few minutes ago. I really thought I was losing the love of my life. Pretend the love that my girlfriend and I share was a patient at a hospital. It come in with the bad case of the doubts. Now this doctor scrambled for a cure. Tried giving the patient the "explain this to me". Sort of worked, but mostly it just made me understand more what was going on. Tried the "please don't do this to me" pill. Worked a little but not to the desired effect. After a long and drawn out hospital stay, this doctor had a breakthrough that was so obvious that it should have bit him. This cure had worked on him when he also had a bad case of the doubts. Why not just try 50 milligrams of "re-assurance". Once this was administered, they love perked right back up and was back to its old self in literally not time. I gave the usual follow up questions that I normally do, and everything checked out fine. We were definitely back to where we were before the whole thing happened (except that my hatred for a certain "person"-and I use that term loosely-was heightened even more) which was perfect. And I actually know now what I have to do to keep these doubts away. Just be there. Its that simple. I just have to be around her, and everything will be fine. So all-in-all its like it never happened. Right? Im pretty sure but hopefully "you-know-who-who-you-are" will comment and answer it for me. Actually if she can just tell me those three things that I asked were still true again, that would be great. And just so you know, that whole "I-have-a-cure" thing doesn't mean that I just said it because it sounded good. I was just trying to fix things so I didn't loose what I loved so much. So yeah, that was a close call...8 Bit Regeneration Leader...signing off...

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To Whom It May Concern...

Oh yeah, since Im on the spirit of creating new blogs, I figure Ill make a 3rd one. Just so everyone cam get a taste of all 3 of my sides. My different "personalities" if you will. Ill break them down for you...

• First theres my favorite, T0ki0. Hes cool, confident, level headed, and just an all-around good guy. Hes going to be the "author" of my next blog, which will be entitled "The Neon Experience"


• Then theres Forever Real. Hes more of a introspective person. Thinks alot, very aware of his surroundings, and looks at things for what they are. Hes the "author" of this blog.


• Last but not least, theres Blaze. Lets just say you dont want to meet him. I put him away along time ago, but from time to time he likes to make his pressence known. Hes the "author" of The Journey Through Fire.

So there you have. All 3 of me. They all make up a part of me, and I think that everyone has different sides to them, I just decided to name them, and give them each their own blog. So dont give me that look. Yeah that look that your given me right now. Lol jk. Anyway, so yeah thats about it, check em out you want....8 Bit RE"Generation Leader...signing off...

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1 Month!!!

Ok I am sooo excited. I have only one month before Spring Break!!! Now Spring Break always means something special to a teenagers, but to me it means more than that. IT MEANS I CAN GO HOME!! I am gonna do so much stuff when I get home. Theyre so many people I have to see (especially a certain someone-you know who you are). Its gonna be sop much fun. Theres only one, eensy-weensy, small problem: I dont know how Im gonna get there. The selfish pr1ck knowns as my father is flying out to CA to finally see his online girlfreind, whom hes never met before.(Yes I know, hes a dumbass) Ive been trying to contact my mom to tell her this but I havent been able to for the simple fact that I dont know where she is. Apperently she gone to a "teachers convention" in Atlantic City. But what convention doesnt allow you to bring your cellphone? Very fishy. And to add on to the suspicion, my stupid father is putting ideas in my head, suggesting that shes in rehab again. God, I hope not. Or if she is, I wish she would have told me first. As of now, I hate them both. I have no idea what Im gonna do. Nobody is telling me the truth about whats going on with her, which pisses me off. And my dad wont get off my back about school, which adds to the frustration. This has been a bad couple of weeks. ( I know I havent put up anything in awhile, its just been alot of drama lately and theres just been to much to talk about. Plus my dad took my comp, Im using my freinds) God, I need a vacation...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off...

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P.S. Im problly gonna make a new blog. Dont worry, Ill still be doing this one too. The new one is just for getting out all my frustrations and everything like that. Contemplating wether I should actually make it public...

Crazy Ish...

Holla everyone. Whats up. Ok Im gonna make this short and sweet (G-Baby, dont get any ideas). Ok, bad news. My cousin got shot. Hes ok fortunatley, but I was realy scared for a second. Now the good news: I got new sneakers! (I know its mad shalow). Been doing some cool music, of course not recording though. I had this whole idea to do a song to each beat off of 808's and Heartbreak, so Ive been working on that. Its going pretty. I also managed to piss off my very lovely "Its complicated" type person. I waited to long to say happy b-day to her. I feel like a jackass. Im sorry, G-Baby. So other than that, nothing much is new. I hope my life can stay this uneventful for awhile...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off...

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Street Pass : REVOKED - Lil Wayne Edition

"Konichiwa hater's, Im back from hiatus..."
-Mickey Factz



Holla everyone! Been away for awhile due to drama dififculties. Anyway, you know what I noticed? Lil Wayne needs street pass taken back. Hes lost it. Ok it was cool when he was acting crazy INSIDE of hip hop. But now, hes taken to the suburbs woth his antics. Hes on Letterman making lame jokes, havin and interviews (and bowling competitions) with Katie Couric, and such. And the sad part is, he doesnt even know that theyre laughing at him, not with him. When he was INSIDE hip hop, atleast we had an excuse for him. We could say "Hey, its hip hop, hes doing his thing. Its good for HIP HOP." But now that hes "transcended" hip hop, he thinks he can do any damn thing infront of any damn body. This doesnt fair well for the culture. Now Im not saying that its bad to have interviews with white talk shows (especially since white teens by 70% of rap records) and have white friends ( since the majority of my friends are white) but when your a hip hop artist, dont act like a damn fool because it reflects poorly on the CULTURE. Therefore, Lil Waynes Street Pass is hereby (atleast to me) revoked until further notice. And for the record, Im not hating, I just see his actions as a hinderance on the culture. I mean, I dont like Wayne as an artist, but I like what hes doing MUSICALLY. I mean I dont even do drugs, or drink, or even smoke, and I STILL like "I Feel Like Dying" (yeah I know Im uber late, I dont care)...8Bit Leader...signing off...


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Lonely Valentine

It sucks being by yourself on Valentines day, especially since you know you already have an angel back home who actually WANTS to spend time with you on that day. I would love nothing to do more than spend time with her. Unfortunaltely, theres the whole 1000 mile thing. I realy miss her. For those of you who are like "Yo, didnt she break your heart already?" Then answer is yes and no. Yes she hurt me. No I dont hate her. Yes I do still love her. No Im not happy with what shes doing. Yes I do understand. So there you have it. And yes the isolation thing is still effect, but its slowly coming down (despite what happened recently, if you know me, you already know). So when I get back, me and her will be just like we were supposed to be. So yeah its all good for now. But in the meantime, it sucks being alone. Might hang with someone on V-Day. G, dont worry, theyre just freinds. I just dont want to spend that day by myself. So yeah... Damn I need to write more songs. Maybe that would help me with EVERYTHING Im going through. Yeah, that might work...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off...

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How To Shatter A World In Minutes...

Ok let me start off this blog by saying...WHAT. THE. F***!! Glad I got that out of my system. Ok now I can realy realy tell you why Im...well not mad...but....broken. Yeah broken sounds good. Anyway, I feel this because of, you guessed it, a girl. But not just any girl, the perfect girl. Remember the girl I told you about before. Yeah, her. Well I dont know how to put this but...I dont know where my and her relationship is right now. Let me tell the whole story:
I got home after a weekend at my friends house and I remembered that I didnt call "Amy" all weekend. So I decided to call her. We small-talked for awhile when she dropped and atomic bomb on the small city I call my life. Not only did some guy ask her out but whats worse is...she said yes. So she told this and at first I had nothing to say. However, as the conversation (or lack there of) went on, I slowly heard myself asking why. But the word why started to get louder and faster, until one point I screamed "WHY?! WHY WOULD YOU DO THSI?! WHAT MADE YOU SAY YES?!" She said that it was becasuse I was so far and she needed someone right there. I was shocked and felt like a jackass. I knew that it hurt but worst of all...I knew she was right. She did need someone close by. I couldnt say this because I was so living in me being mad and depressed(but I guess shell know now, huh?) Anyway, we talked and I told her why it hurt me so much and she we on to tell me that she wouldnt stopn it. Personally I cant blame her. However I still wish that she didnt it. Its killing me that she is going out with him. I dont even know how to speak to her anymore. I mean we can talk like we used to, because she has a boyfreind now. I just dont know wat to do right now. I am soo lost. I hope she reads this so she can know EXACTLY how I feel. I was to mad over the phone to say anything else. She continues to asure me that she stll loves me the same way. She also continures to say that I also gave her the green light to date othere people. But I pointed back saying that I also said I was be hurt if she did though. Either way, I dont know where this leaves us. She says she still loves me as much as she did before, but Im hurting so much that Im questioning wether I can beleive her or not. Im also questioning weher I can still love anymore. I mean I love her still, like no joke, but I was so incredidbly hurt by this that Im not sure if I can love anyone, let alone her. Im not being melodramatic, thats just how much Im hurting right now. So now I have to pick up the peices and continue going back into my isolation until I feel I can realy love again. who knows when that can be. Maybe a few days, maybe a few months, maybe even a few years (although that seems unlikely, im a sucker for love) Anyway I talk to her today and see what she has to say and we'll see where it goes today. Stay tuned...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off...

*BOOM* (TRANMISSION INTERUPTED)
(LOUD VOICE THAT IS NOT T0KI0'S)
ISOLATION BEGINS NOW. T0KI0 WILL STILL TALK TO LIFEFORMS, BUT WILL BE EMOTIONALLY DISTANT UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE...

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Shes Gonna Be SOOOOO Pissed

In regards to the beautiful girl mentioned before, please dont kill me. I didnt call because I went to my dads gf's house for a few days and forgot my phone. I am soo sorry. Please dont be mad...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader....signing off...

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The Waiting Game

I dont see how a girl can wait so long. Maybe theyre just more patience than dudes, I dont know. But what I do know is that I have a beautiful, wonderful, sexy, intelligent girl waiting for me back home...and its driving me CRAZY!! Ok me and (lets call her Amy Rose. (sneaking the sonic reference)) have been talking for awhile now. We are both madly (I guess we can say) love with each other. Shes been there through some of my best and darkest moments. I truly love her. Anyway thanks to some misguided attempts at controlling me and trying to put me in a place that I dont want to be in, we have about, oh lets say, a 1000 miles between us. Doesnt seem that bad, right? Love conquers all, and all that jazz? Wrong. This distance has put a huge strain on our relationship. Dont get it wrong, we still are totally in love with each other, but its to the point that we dont have a formal boyfriend/girlfriend relationship because she feels that the strain of us being so far apart would hurt her. And I can totally understand that. It would kill me, too. I miss her everyday (Im looking at her picture right now). Im her Hielo and shes my G-Baby (ok i know its wack but im working on a new nickname, aiight?) Anyway, as of now we are waiting until I finish the school year so I can finally take my rightful place by her side. Shes amazing. I dont see how she can wait so patiently, especially since I dont feel like Im waiting for (dont get mad at me for saying that, G). This distance is driving me insane though! Whos she with? Whats she doing? Does she still feel like waiting? Are guys hitting on her? Is she hitting on them? Now I know that I shouldnt think this way, especially the way she loves me, but these are the thoughts that pass through a guys head. I think I think this way because I havent had alot of good things happen in my life and when something good DOES happen, I have to find something wrong with it. And trust me, shes the best thing to happen to me in a very, very, VERY, UNBELIEVABLY VERY long time. I just need to be with her. Thats why Im looking forward toward spring break. So, here we are. Twiddling our thumbs and such. The two lovers waiting for each other. The waiting game continues...

PS. "Amy Rose" please dont get mad at me for what I said. This is just me putting my feelings somewhere so theyre not in here *points to heart*. I just need to say this so I could sleep at night. It hurts everyday that Im not with you (and i know this is mad long)...Damn...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off... 

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Depressing Blog Entry...Vol.1

Ok I told you this blog is gonna have some depressing entries right? Ok well heres the first one:

Alright I woke up feeling like it was gonna be a bad day. I was like "Aww ish, I should have stayed in bed this morning!" So I got up, thanks to a very beautiful girl (Im not gonna name names, but you know who you are), threw my 8 Bit greatness on, and headed out the door, forgetting it was F*****G COLD!!! So I went inside, and got my hoodie that is heavy. Then I took the frozen tundra journey that is my walk to the bus. When I got to school, I was freaking confused because they changed my classes and she does everything different. Then I had to do a presentation in my next class that I had to fix because everyone in my group didnt know what they were doing and did the math for the project wrong. Next class was chemistry...nuff said. At least I had a break in the badness during  4th period  spanish (Ms. Wright is awesome!) Lunch was normal, except for the fact that my little buddy came back for wherever he was at. Math was bad for the simple fact that Im not that good at it. And last but not least...history. My teacher will not SHUT UP! He always talks about what we're not doing or how bad we are. Im like maybe we would pay attention if you would stop talking! Anyway, after that I went home. My friend came to my house and we stood outside and talked to the neighborhood kids. While playing with them, I fell and felt something was missing. Once I went in my house I checked my pockets and realized the worst had happened...I LOST MY MP3!! Now if you know me, I cant live without my mp3 player. The rest of the day was a blur because after that crushing blow, I basically slept for the next 2 days. Damn...8 Bit Leader...signing off...

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Is Lupe Fiasco Really Percival Fats?

Ok theres a rumor going around the Lupe Fiasco is the really the singer, Percival Fats, for a british punk band called Japanese Cartoon. Now they are really good and there is a great resemblance but im not quite sure. Lupe and Japanese Cartoon have both issued as statement refuting the claims (you like how i sounded like a reporter dont you?)


"Percival Fats (Born Percival Hindenburg-Fats) Is NOT Lupe Fiasco (Born Wasalu Muhammad Jaco). Although he is a dear friend."

"...Lupe does finance the band but is NOT I REPEAT NOT THE SINGER IN JAPANESE CARTOON. He is however the producer and we value his participation very much."

Now I realy dont care if he is or isnt but I like the song either way but I do realize that this may make people wonder...so here you go (search around in the space below for the link)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eDDcBYcUW64

You decide...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...Signing off...

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Long Conversation On Myspace

Ok, ish just got real. I was just doin my lil myspace thing. Y'know, jusy checkin the buzz for some off my favorite rappers and stuff. When I was on Wale's page (btw W.A.L.E.D.A.N.C.E. is one of my new favorite songs) I happened across a persons screan name that read "Urban Sci-Fi - Free Beats". So being the inquesitive person that I am, I messaged the person asking for a beat, not thinking i would get a response. So hours went by and I totally forgot, then I looked and there was message from this person asking about what type of music I do. So I was just like "Whatever, lets see where this goes." So we talked for a bit thru messages and before you know it, we got to talkin about doing some business together and maybe she could produce for me! So she said she would work with us (Me and my partners Ty and Rahmel) and come up with some ideas for songs. So I might have the last part of my last blog entry sooner than I thought. She even was talkin about putting us on a mixtape! It looks like i might have somthin to do with this music thing after all... The ride is gonna get interesting. But yall will be there for the ride, right? Yeah, I thought so. Stay tuned, sit back, and watch the Pixxilation Process begin...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off...

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Things Im Looking Forward To In '09 (Musically)

Ok, since '09 just started and everybody is talking about what theyre looking forward to, I figure I would take a shot at it. However since my life is run by music, I'll talk about what Im looking forward to musically. So here it goes:

Everybody from the XXL Freshman of '09 issue debut album

The Blueprint 3 by Jay-Z

Green Day album (whenever it comes out)

Goin To A Luper Fiasco Concert

Goin To A Charles Hamilton Concert

Goin To An N.E.R.D. Concert

and of course...

Atleast 1 recorded song from me!

So there you have it. My '09 wish in letter form. I realy hope all of this happens. So with that said, Im out...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off

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