What every kiss means...

I was just surfing through random pages and I found this. It seems pretty accurate...

-kiss on the stomach="i'm
ready"

~Kiss on the Forehead = "i hope we're
together
forever"

~Kiss on the Ear = "Your my everything"

~Kiss on the Cheek = "We're friends"

~Kiss on the Hand = "I adore you"

~Kiss on the Neck = "we belong
together"

~Kiss on the Shoulder = "I want you"

~Kiss on the Lips = "I love you"

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What the gesture means...

~Holding Hands = "we definitely love
each other"

~Slap on the Butt = "That's mine"

~Holding on tight = "i don't want to
let go"

~Looking into each other's Eyes = "i
just plain love you"

~Playing with Hair = "Tell me you love
me"

~Arms around the Waist = "I love you
too much to let go"

~Laughing while Kissing = "I am
completely comfortable with you"

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--Advice--

Dont ask for a kiss, take one.
If you were thinking about someone
while reading
this,
you're definitely in Love.

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Lol yeah I admit I was thinking of someone, then I read the last part and I was like "...woah" lol...

Lyrics That Make Me Miss Her

(Lyrics have been edited to ensure that they make sense)
Yeah..
Doo-doo-doo, mmm-mmm-mmm-mmm-mmm..
Doo-doo-d-doo, diggy-doo YO..

I never knew a luh, luh-luh, a love like this
Gotta be somethin for me to write this
Queen, I ain't seen you in a minute
Wrote this letter, and finally decide to send it
Signed sealed delivered for us to grow together
Love has no limit, let's spend it slow forever
I know your heart is weathered by what studs did to you
I ain't gon' assault em cause I probably did it too
Because of you, feelings I handle with care
Some niggaz recognize the light but they can't handle the glare
You know I ain't the type to walk around with matchin shirts
If relationship is effort I will match your work
I wanna be the one to make you happiest, it hurts you the most
They say the end is near, it's important that we close..
.. to the most, high
Regardless of what happen on him let's rely


There are times.. when you'll need someone..
I will be by your side..
There is a light, that shines,
special for you, and me..


Yo, yo, check it
It's important, we communicate
and tune the fate of this union, to the right pitch
I never call you my bitch or even my boo
There's so much in a name and so much more in you
Few understand the union of woman and man
And sex and a tingle is where they assume that it land
But that's fly by night for you and the sky I write
For in these cold Chi night's moon, you my light
If heaven had a height, you would be that tall
Ghetto to coffee shop, through you I see that all
Let's stick to understandin and we won't fall
For better or worse times, I hope to me you call
So I pray everyday more than anything
friends will stay as we begin to lay
(there was sumthin here but i took it out) - love ain't simple
Why can't it be anything worth having you work at annually
Granted we known each other for some time
It don't take a whole day to recognize sunshine


There are times.. when you'll need someone..
I will be by your side, oh darling
There is a light, that shines,
special for you, and me..


Yeah.. yo, yo, check it
It's kinda fresh you listen to more than hip-hop
and I can catch you in the mix from beauty to thrift shop
Plus you ship hop when it's time to, thinkin you fresh
Suggestin beats I should rhyme to
At times when I'm lost I try to find you
You know to give me space when it's time to
My heart's dictionary defines you, it's love and happiness
Truthfully it's hard tryin to practice abstinence
The time we committed love it was real good
Had to be for me to arrive and it still feel good
I know the sex ain't gon' keep you, but as my equal
it's how I must treat you
As my reflection in light I'ma lead you
And (i cant wait till I can reach) you
Digga-da, digga-da, digga-da, digga-digga-da-da
Yo I tell you the rest when I see you, peace


There are times.. when you'll need someone..
I will be by your side..
There is a light, that shines,
special for you, and me..


(I'll) take my chances.. before they pass..
.. pass me by, oh darling..
You need to look at the other side..
You'll agree..
-Common's "The Light"

Baby you my everything you all i ever wanted.
We can do it real big.
Bigger then you ever done it.
You be up on everything.
Other (girls) ain't never on it.
I want this forever, i swear i can spend whatever on it.


Ha. And you ain't even have to ask twice
You can have my heart or we can share it like the last slice


Sweat pants, hair tied, chilling with no make up on
That's when your the prettiest
I hope that you don take it wrong
-Drake's "Best I Ever Had"

Ill never go back to Georgia
Not atleast till Have to
-Mayday Parade's "Jamie All Over"

Theres more but this is all Im gonna post for now....8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off..

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Stupid Guy Syndrome...

This is something Im probably going to talk to Fujiko about later.

I...have stupid guy syndrome.

You know how when you have a conversation, and when you hang up, you think to yourself "What the HELL was I saying?"
Yeah that happens to guys alot. It did to me last night.
For the record, this isnt a blog about me being extremely sucky or anything. Alot of guys have this problem. Im just saying that I need to stop saying stupid things. Because I, and everyone else who has ever done this, feel awfully stupid when the conversation is over.
Which is funny because you never realize how stupid you sound until AFTER the convo.
But anyway, in order to be the better person I promised Fujiko I would be, could you please tell me when my disorder is acting up. Your help would be greatly appreciated...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off...

PS. If this blog entry didnt say it enough, I apologize and Im sorry if I came off like an ass. Forgive pls?

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Fricken Killjoy...

You know those people who when your having a good day, they can say one thing and kill your high (i mean high on life people, im not on drugs)? Yeah thats happened to me three times in the pasy 48 hours. I mean I didnt let it faze me but it gets annoying after awhile.
Sometimes it happens because people are just having bad days themselves and just want to/cant help but bring you down with them. Those are the people I try to avoid. I mean some of my friends do that, but when they have a bad day, and I have a good day, sometimes its best just to leave them alone.
Then there are those who had no intention of blowing your high. And it might not even blow your high as much as it just sorta makes your good day flinch in pain a little, but then picks back up. Those are the ones where you can really say anything about it so you can keep your peace of mind. It sorta sucks but you just gotta keep moving with your day, ya know? Wat else can you do.
So with that, Ill try to enjoy the rest of my day. Shouldnt be to hard, but you know the things that shouldnt bother you (and the ones that you wont let bother you) are the ones that sorta kill your high the most...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off...

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Neutral Zone...(yeah like switzerland)

Im sorta in a grey area right now. I have alot to be happy about (potentially) but I have alot of things to upset about (a few of them potentially). So instead of being like "Well Im happy about this, but Im sad abou this", Im gonna keep it to myself for now. Is that a good thing? Or should you always voice whats bothereing. Ive been told that keeping things inside isnt a good thing but Ive also been told that not sayinog whats bothering allows that thing to keep bothering you. Hmm this is a conundrum. I would love to say exactly whats bothering me, but due to new realizations I have put on myself (and one promise that Ive made), I cant/wont. For now Im gonna keep it inside and let my own heart/mind deal with it for a change, and if that doesnt work, THEN Ill go to my friends. Or maybe I should go to my friends first and if that doesnt work, then deal with it myself. Lol this is becoming a confusing blog entry. Not to mention my computer is sorta acting stipud lately. I think I mightjust go blog crazy today (make multiple entries that have to deal with many topics). Just to air out a few things. I have a few ideas so I should be able to atleast do something incase my other plans fall dont happen...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off...

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The Retraction...

Ok so about the previous blog. I woke up this morning and realized I was wrong. It wasnt that I was being a burden, although sometimes I am, but I was relying in the wrong people. Maybe not even that. Maybe I wasnt relying on myself enough. Thats a definite possibility. I guess when bad things happen, I cant go "damn, i suck." I have to say, "damn that sucks, guess i gotta keep moving." I need to be more of an army of one than a foot soldier of many. I still should rely on my friends but I need to be able to gauge when Im relying on them too much and I need to lean on myself more. And theres nothing wrong that. I mean, I still hurt, but instead of waiting for someone to fix my wounds, I should play a more active role in the healing process, while at the same time letting my friends help. Theres a fine line between being a totally dependent on someone and being a total loner, because both of them can cause you to lose people. Some days I wish I could try to be a loner, thinking life would be easier that way. But I realize that that isnt me. No matter how much people hurt me, I love them to much. What can I say, I have a big heart. Sue me. So I guess I have to find the happy medium between dependent and loner. Its like Spider-Man and Batman. (I told you i was a nerd for them both fujiko lol) Spider-Man relys on people, while Batman needs no one. I guess if you fuse both of them you get Sonic, who sorta has both of their attributes. Sonic depends on his friends when he has to, but in the end always stands on his own two. (Lol it weird how they all my fav superheros) So I guess that whats I gotta do. Easier said than done though. But I can do it, Im strong...* Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off...

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A Black Hole Is A Welcomed Thing Right Now...

You ever had one of those days where you feel like people only deal with you because they have to and they make your life a living hell just so you know that they only deal with you because you have to?
Yeah, thats how I feel...
Everyday
Well atleast for the past few weeks.
I mean I feel like a burden on alot of people. Like at home(well not home cuz my real home is on Allison's couch.) Im treated like the ugly stepchild. He doesnt talk to me unless he has to, and the only times he has to is when hes telling me how much I suck, how its my fault bad things happen to me, or yelling at me about the things that I dont do. School is pretty much the same way. They dont talk to just to say "your doin a good job" even though we bust our ass, they just yell at you that you arent good enough. And if they dont like you,they will literally REFUSE to teach you. If you need help, they will actually say no. The students give you hell, but thats to be expected. Even though they are starting to become more of a pain than usual.

Even people back at home make me feel like a burden.

Im only gonna mention one name (although i can name a few others that make me feel that way.) My Mom. You can tell your a burden when A) You always have to call the other person or B)When they eventually DO call YOU they always sound realy distant like they realy dont want to talk, ESPECIALLY to you. I always have to call my mom. I called her last night and she even suggested that I shouldnt call her because shes tired of hearing about the bad things that are going on with me.

Thats the thing. Ive been holding alot of stuff in lately. I dont want to give a reason for people to think that Im burden. I dont talk about things that bother me because I want them to just go away. And if I deny that they exist, maybe they will, I dont know. But I just dont want to bring people down so people can go on with their lives, whether they want to forget about me or not...

Like the title says, a black hole would be welcome. I just want to go away. For two reasons 1) So I can just be alone and not hurt anymore. 2)So if I actually AM a burden on anyone, i wont have to be. They can just get on with their lives, whether they want me in them or not. But just to make my life easier, I wish they would just tell me 1)If Im being a burden or not and 2) If they want me in their lives. They guessing is killing me. Literally, its becoming a strain on my health. Anyway, yeah, I just want to go away. Way away. (Lol its ironic how Im listen to Way Away by Yellowcard right now) So if I am or am not a burden, can you tell me please? It would be greatly appreciated. And be honest, dont spare my feelings. If I am, you can just forget me. Trust me, itll hurt but Im slowly getting used to it...8 Bit RE:Generation Leader...signing off...

PS. Im not speaking to anyone in particular. Im just speaking to the universe, hopping someone will hear and understand. But like I said, tell me if I am or am not

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